Recovering a repressed memory without therapy?

You are on the right track. But I think you need to see someone. Going to you local rape crisis center is free and its for anyone who has been sexually assaulted. They are there to help. And you do deserve to get better, give them a chance. The treatment for sexual abuse is exposure therapy so in essence you should get better just by talking about it but with going to therapy they would know how to respond. If you absolutely do not want to their is a book that might help, "Resurrection after Rape." It has helped a lot of people but also this book people typically go through with a therapist who can help them get through. I hope you get better!